Much needed sleep
Is happening now.
I’m wearing sweat pants tomorrow.
October 2010
September 2010
Jordin Sparks came on the tv in the shrinks office.
I said “HELLEN!”
I'm slightly nervous
For my counseling appointment.
How do I tell a complete stranger everything I’m dealing with, with ease?
“
Me: I killed myself. Did you know that?:)
Matt: way to be Jesus, Hailey. Good job.:D
” —Some kid in the front of the bus is talking about a guy who killed himself. Sparked this short conversation.
“IF ONLY YOU WERE OLDER, I COULD SAFELY HIT ON YOU.”
—He tends to make my day, a lot.
Shit.
I just realized.
After eating, and then throwing up,
I realized that I threw up my birth control.
No mother fucking wonder i’ve been on my period for a month.
Fuckfuckfuckfuck.
Legitimate conversation.
- Tina: Hailey are you gonna eat a steak with us?
- Me: No I ate today already.
- Tina: Hailey. Just one bite.
- Me: No! I already ate today!
- Tina: HAILEY ELIZABETH.
- Me: What?! I told you I already ate!
- Tina: YOU CAN'T STARVE YOURSELF HAILEY.
- Me: AND YOU CAN'T FORCE FOOD DOWN MY THROAT EITHER.
“Smile, the world is beautiful.”
—A kid I don’t even know.
I don't know why
But I’m getting that ranting, hateful feeling in the pit of my stomach.
I just want to walk.
Run. As far as I can.
Then when I want to. I’ll come home.
Way to ruin my day, Bitch.
Fuck you. Just go back to the goddamn beach. And take Rob with you.
ASOFRIGHTNOW.
I’m sitting naked in my bathroom listening to Kid Cudi. Yusssssssss.
Dad buys me tampons.
Maybe he really does love me c:
He's not just an errand boy.
is he?
